I raced against time... but I lost.

forget it man. dependence really sucks. especially when you depend on someone who asks something back from you. GF and FANG, i envy your "giving without expecting anything in return" attitude. i know the rest of the world, if not somebody, will patiently wait for me to change. i will want to give willingly too. calculating is exhausive. dont know why some people just refuse to stop. its best not to owe such people anything man. the past will keep haunting you. i can feel what gf and fang feels sometimes. like so generous, then dont even think about what you done, then move on. some people just like to force me to bring up the past mistakes of others. not like you dont know im very good with arguments. vengeance is a really bad thing. i better not be like this. it doesnt show that i love someone at all. i think having a vengeful thought is the worst. the more your vengeful, the more you dont feel like loving someone. makes the other party feel unloved too. so why i do that right? i better not be like this. why do i even bother risking a conflict. i better be strong, if not i will not do well for prelims man. prelims, not any human relationships to take over. no love at all anyway. just out to make people angry. need a third person to keep helping us to see. irritating like shit man. always fighting to be right. always fighting to see who caused what. why i do that now. one advice man, dont care what poeple do to you. do what you deem is right. at the very least, you can be happy about something right, though you might not be happy doing it. that is why i removed "FAAAAAAAAAAARK YOUUUUUU". must admit i do want to take revenge many many times, but when you realise that it simply means your becoming the person you were angry with. thats plain stupid. if i can see this picture earlier, i would have been happier. words and actions from others dont affect your emotions, its the way you look at them. my motto.