I raced against time... but I lost.

honey bunz at 5/21/2006 03:52:00 PM

Sunday, May 14, 2006

honey bunz at 5/14/2006 06:12:00 PM

hey gerry sorry for saying practice what you preach when your trying to help me get over stuff..

honey bunz at 5/14/2006 05:29:00 PM

You've got your mother and your brother
Every other undercover
Tellin' you what to say
You think I'm stupid
But the truth is
That it's cupid, baby
Lovin' you has made me this way
So before you point your finger
Get your hands off of my trigger
Oh yeah
You need to know this situation's getting old
And now the more you talk The less I can say, oh

I'm looking for attention
Not another question
Should you stay or should you go?
Well, if you don't have the answer
Why you still standin' here?
Hey, hey, hey, hey
Just walk away
Just walk away
Just walk away

I waited here for you
Like a kid waiting after school
So tell me how come you never showed?
I gave you everything
And never asked for anything
And look at me
I'm all alone
So, before you start defendin'
Baby, stop all your pretendin'
I know you know I know
So what's the point in being slow
Let's get the show on the road today
Hey

I'm looking for attention
Not another question
Should you stay or should you go?
Well, if you don't have the answer
Why you still standin' here?
Hey, hey, hey, hey
Just walk away
Just walk away
Just walk away

I wanna love
I want a fire
To feel the burn
My desires
I wanna man by my side
Not a boy who runs and hides
Are you gonna fight for me?
Die for me?
Live and breathe for me?
Do you care for me?
'Cause if you don't then just leave

I'm looking for attention
Not another question
Should you stay or should you go?
Well, if you don't have the answer
Why you still standin' here?
Hey, hey, hey, hey
Just walk away

If you don't have the answer
Walk away
Just walk away
Then just leave Yeah yeah
Walk away
Walk away
Walk away

by the way my good friend, Ange was really sweet to me. she asked me yesterday whether i have this song to send to her. i didnt have it so i left without sending her. today when i checked the mails, she sent me the song, AND THE LYRICS. coz she thought the song was really nice. so sweet my darling.

bre bre was also very sweet to download mariah's song for me. when i asked her for it and she didnt have it, so she downloaded the songS for me. those i requested.. thanks babe!

reena, thanks so much for the constant reminder that the team always have my back. i think i needed that a lot. i suck suddenly. i dont know why.

gf thanks for helping to correct my passes.. now i am passing ok and i will remember the feel of the good passes.

honey bunz at 5/14/2006 05:14:00 PM

Saturday, May 13, 2006

i rather it be something i cannot control... i rather it be "nothing i can do" situation... but it isn't.. i dont know why... i dont know why i somehow throw horrible passes... i really try not to make that mistake. but the more i try the more disappointed i get. i cannot get enough scolding for that. but i dont know why i cant wake up from that. im really dying from it... evertime i train, i cant overcome. i dont have time anymore. how many more days. even if coach doesnt want me out in the season, i dont think i deserve the place. i cannot do what primary schools do best in- throwing a long pass to the WA. i dig a hole for my head after every training to hide my painful shame. i cannot stand it anymore. i spent 70% of my time on netball, and i cant get happy with my performance. can you imagine how happy i am as a person now. tearing myself apart. i admit, im courting my own death

honey bunz at 5/13/2006 09:53:00 AM