I raced against time... but I lost.

honey bunz at 8/29/2006 12:58:00 PM

Wednesday, August 23, 2006

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im this worthless shit praying that God will just take me home. i really dont like what i feel and no concern man. so what if i have the biggest flaw on earth. so what if i have the greatest strength on earth? it all boils down feeling worth of existence isn't it? think about it. being forgotten by someone you really care about or being remembered despite everything else falls? would you feel like dying if no one cares. isn't that what humans are about? seeking for love and attention? people who chooses solitary coz they tried finding their value in others' eyes and found nothing. isn't it your value that makes the world all sweeter to live in? if you are valueless, are you going to be the strong one out there?

honey bunz at 8/23/2006 10:39:00 AM

Sunday, August 20, 2006

tell me there's something i can do to take all this shit away. stop and talk to me please, somebody

honey bunz at 8/20/2006 09:00:00 PM

Wednesday, August 16, 2006

forget it man. dependence really sucks. especially when you depend on someone who asks something back from you. GF and FANG, i envy your "giving without expecting anything in return" attitude. i know the rest of the world, if not somebody, will patiently wait for me to change. i will want to give willingly too. calculating is exhausive. dont know why some people just refuse to stop. its best not to owe such people anything man. the past will keep haunting you. i can feel what gf and fang feels sometimes. like so generous, then dont even think about what you done, then move on. some people just like to force me to bring up the past mistakes of others. not like you dont know im very good with arguments. vengeance is a really bad thing. i better not be like this. it doesnt show that i love someone at all. i think having a vengeful thought is the worst. the more your vengeful, the more you dont feel like loving someone. makes the other party feel unloved too. so why i do that right? i better not be like this. why do i even bother risking a conflict. i better be strong, if not i will not do well for prelims man. prelims, not any human relationships to take over. no love at all anyway. just out to make people angry. need a third person to keep helping us to see. irritating like shit man. always fighting to be right. always fighting to see who caused what. why i do that now. one advice man, dont care what poeple do to you. do what you deem is right. at the very least, you can be happy about something right, though you might not be happy doing it. that is why i removed "FAAAAAAAAAAARK YOUUUUUU". must admit i do want to take revenge many many times, but when you realise that it simply means your becoming the person you were angry with. thats plain stupid. if i can see this picture earlier, i would have been happier. words and actions from others dont affect your emotions, its the way you look at them. my motto.

honey bunz at 8/16/2006 11:45:00 AM

MY LIT PAPER WAS BAD!

Is it worth it can you even hear me?
Standing with your spotlight on me
Not enough to feed the hungry
I'm tired and I've felt it for a while now
In this sea of lonely
The taste of ink is getting old
It's four o' clock in the fucking morning
Each day gets more and more like the last day
Still I can see it coming
While I'm standing in the river drowning
This could be my chance to break out
This could be my chance to say goodbye
At last it's finally over
Couldn't take this town much longer
Being half dead wasn't what I planned to be
Now I'm ready to be free

honey bunz at 8/16/2006 11:44:00 AM

Thursday, August 03, 2006

the last stretch is just so hard to finish. its always the hardest part. great powerful fluctuations in emotions. just constantly thinking that nothing will go your way. feeling like shit ok. defeinitely.

honey bunz at 8/03/2006 08:04:00 PM