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Sunday, March 28, 2004 Once, there lived a child. He lived in a happy family, with parents and siblings. However, he never stopped to think about how wonderful his life had been. He just kept on playing, squabbling with his siblings when they did not want to play what he wanted to play.
However, when he wanted to apologize, he always said, "Never mind. there's tomorrow." When he grew up a little, school was a very nice place for him. He learned, made friends, and was very happy. However, he never thought that this was happiness to him. It all came so naturally that he felt it should become part of his life. One day, he had a great fight with his best friend. Though he knew he was in the wrong, he never took the initiative to apologize or made up with his best friend. His excuse was, "Never mind, I'll do it tomorrow." When he grew up yet some more that best friend was no longer part of his. Even though he still sees his friend around, but they don't even greet each other. But that was all right, because he still had other good friends. He and his friends did almost everything together, eating, playing, doing homework, and fooling around. Yes, they were another bunch of verygood friends. When he graduated, work kept him very busy. He's found himself a very pretty and virtuous girlfriend and she soon became his constant companion. He made himself busy with work, because he wanted to get promoted to the highest position with the shortest time possible. Sure, he missed his good friends. He missed them a lot. But he never got down keeping in touch with them, not even a telephone call. He always said, "Boy, I'm so tired, I'll catch up with them tomorrow." It didn't affect him at all because he could find colleagues who are always willing to go pubbing with him.Thus, as time passes by, he's forgotten to call his friends. After he's got married with kids, he works even harder in order to bring comfort to his family. He never buys flowers for his wife anymore, nor does he remember his wife's birthdays and wedding anniversary. It was all right because his wife always understood him, and never blamed him. Of course, he felt guilty at times and wanted very much to have a chance to say to his wife "I love you", but he never got down to doing it. His excuse was "never mind, I'll do it tomorrow for sure". He never made it to his children's birthday parties, but this time he did not knew how it would affect the children. The children began to drift away from him, as they never really spent time with their father. One day, disaster struck when his wife was killed in an accident. It was a hit and run accident. But on that day, he was in the middle of a meeting. Failing to understand that it is a fatal accident, he arrived by his wife's deathbed only to see her on the verge of death. Before he could mouth out the words "I love you", his wife already passed away. The man became despondent and tried to find solace in his children after his wife's death. However, he soon realized that the children do not even try to communicate with him. Soon, his children have grown up and found their own families. Nobody cared for this old man who in the past hadn't spared his time for them. He moved into the best Old Folk's Home, which provides excellent service with the money he has saved for him and his wife's 50th, 60th, and 70th anniversary celebrations. All the money intended to go to Hawaii, New Zealand, and other countries went into the fund that pays for his stay in the home. From that time until his deathbed, there were only old folks and nurses taking care of him. He now felt the loneliness that he did not feel before. Upon his deathbed, he called a nurse in and said to her, "Ah... If only I had realized this earlier. .? And died with tears upon his cheek. Time never stops. You go on and on, and before you realized it, you've already gone very far. If you had quarreled, make up quickly! If you feel you need to hear your friend's voice, don't hesitate to pick up the phone. If there are many dreams that you wish to fulfill, fulfill them. Lastly, if you feel you need to tell somebody that you care, don't wait until it is too late. If you keep thinking you will do that another day, then that day will never come. If you always think that tomorrow will come, then 'tomorrow' will run out quickly and you'll realize the time that you've left behind you hey peeps.. you can see that i have not been updating eh? sorry... was really busy tangibly and intangibly.. esp this week, WED match, THURS trg, FRI match, SAT trg.. consecutively.. been worn out physically, and mentally as well.. talking about that.. GF, hope you feel better after a loong conversation ya? thanks for listening to my crap and im glad you shared.. i'll pray that things like these wont disturb us anymore..
many netballers always complain that my blogs are so dolorous.. im blog to 1-improve my english, 2-wash out the pain in me? of cuz its dispiriting? but right now, many things in my life had made turning points.. unaware of the correct turning points, i've hurt deeply for every single one.. whether its the best for me or not, it tore my heart apart. or rather, like everyone said, heart is fragile and so it shattered like glass instead. "never meant to be happy" and "we thru as anything and everything" are something that stayed in my mind.. it rains in my heart when i think of the 2 phrases.. ignorance is what i always get now.. i've gotten used to it.. i've.. forget it to my sweetheart who's traumatised... hope you'll at least let it out to someone. no use keeping it ya? guys, help me pray for this poor dear that she'll not be bullied again? thank you.. sometimes, things happen for a reason? dont brood over it? Tuesday, March 16, 2004 I LOVE THIS...
In front of the person you like, your heart beats faster. But in front of the person you love, you get happy. In front of the person you love, winter seems like spring. But in front of the person you like, winter is just beautiful winter. If you look into the eyes of the one you like, you blush. But if you look into the eyes of the one you love, you smile. In front of the person you like, you can't say everything on your mind. But in front of the person you love, you can. In front of the person you like, you tend to get shy. But in front of the person you love, you can show your own self. You can't look straight into the eyes of the one you like. But you can always smile into the eyes of the one you love. When the one you love is crying, you cry with them. But when the one you like is crying, you end up comforting. The feeling of love starts from the eye But the feeling of like starts from the ear. So if you stop liking a person you used to like, all you need to do is cover your ears. But if you try to close your eyes, love turns into a drop of tear and remains in your heart forever ... Saturday, March 13, 2004 there's one thing that i should be proud of you know? do you know that actually the netballers are just a bunch of Chinese oriented girls? IJ-rians are actually chinese oriented?!!
for the average chinese test paper (O'level format) that was given across the whole level, SANDY (known as miss hardworking) scored 78/90?!! and ahem, I scored 75/90, claiming the secong position in class?!! and guess who's 3rd? is our miss cheena biang (CHEWY) scoring 72/90!!!! goodnesss.. then you know, our chinese teacher "introduced" to the class the compo experts.. and one of them is KAHYEE?!!!! i am so proud of my miss PET SI also? she scored full marks for chinese comphre? and PAMELA scored 44/50, crowned the queen of chinese in her class?!! can you see how chinese oriented we are now? IJ NETABLLERS... YOU ROCK!!!!!!!! Wednesday, March 10, 2004 Are You A Reason, A Season, Or A Lifetime?
People come into your life for a reason, a season or a lifetime. When you figure out which one it is, you will know what to do for each person. When someone is in your life for a REASON. It is usually to meet a need you have expressed. They have come to assist you through a difficulty, to provide you with guidance and support, to aid you physically, emotionally, or spiritually. They may seem like a godsend, and they are! They are there for the reason you need them to be. Then, without any wrongdoing on your part, or at an inconvenient time, this person will say or do something to bring the relationship to an end. Sometimes they die. Sometimes they walk away. Sometimes they act up and force you to take a stand. What we must realize is that our need has been met, our desire fulfilled, their work is done. The prayer you sent up has been answered. now it is time to move on. Then people come into your life for a SEASON. Because your turn has come to share, grow, or learn. They bring you an experience of peace, or make you laugh. They may teach you something you have never done. They usually give you an unbelievable amount of joy. Believe it! It is real! But, only for a season. LIFETIME relationships teach you lifetime lessons: things you must build upon in order to have a solid emotional foundation. Your job is 2 accept the lesson, love the person, and put what you have learned to use in all other relationships and areas of your life. It is said that love is blind but friendship is clairvoyant. Sunday, March 07, 2004 Cool.. Written by my GF but it applied to me..
Lost without your love, Without your touch Left me broken; undone Falling deep In this love we cant keep Emotions break down Sorrow fills the air around Wherever you go,i'll go I just want you to know Although you're gone Im still holding on To what we had The dreams we shared remember i told you my world is crashing down on me? it has landed.. officially.. though many times i thought it landed, i fought my way up to push it as far as i could.. this time.. with this one sentence, my world shot through my non existent heart.. not that i didnt feel any pain.. but its like i jumped from the 20th storey, and the trauma and shock i received killed me instantaneously before i received the physical injuries..
i always thought that jumping from the 20th storey means dying because you sustained fatal injuries.. (gosh, my hands can hardly type the words.. cant see too.. haha?) well... i had a small discussion with kel and kel's ma, (Like we're really the experts or we'd experienced it) we concluded that we actually die from shock so we dont feel any physical pain... thats how im feeling.. i got the shock, the dismay.. then, my body got numb.. like the physical features corroded or decomposed.. the nerves are dead.. no longer in ooperation.. but leaving the poor heart, trying to keep itself alive on nothing.. it has now nothing to lean, depend on.. (im trying out mrs low's stuff) its like the pair of shoes i received.. i thought by tightening the laces when wearing, i would feel the security on my feet.. i didnt need to fear the shoes would fall off.. but as i tightened and tightened, tension was building up without notice.. next minute i knew, the laces were torn.. then i realised, its no use strangling your loved one who's not meant to be yours.. yes its gona hurt, like mad.. wondered a million times, how am i to survive this? but what to do.. if your meant to be hurt, you've got no choice.. not at all.. no matter how you try, you will deepen your on wound.. you'll be applying tons of salt to your wound... gosh.. good luck people.. prove to your loved ones that you love them.. since i've failed.. i shall give you an advice.. please... be tactful in whatever you do? trust and hoesty is something you cant lose.. cant leave out? |
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