I raced against time... but I lost.

this is so not encouraging la.. i have been facing the hair splitting questions from maths. i dont know why, but the moment i think or look at math, i really dont feel well. like this edgy feeling encircling me. man do i feel dizzy over it. the improvements i had made look so remote. i guess the path to triple A's seem harder than i thought. oh my shit.. people will just react with scorn if i proclaim to be hardworking.

by the way, i think im starting to compare myself with the world.. i just keep feeling tiny about myself and get green with envy looking at others.. it just make me so bloody upset with the world like that. i dont want it.. i dont want to compare, but i cant control, and even cry over it. haiya...

and um i have some interesting news to share.. i had trg on wed, and i fell off the stairs. sent to hospital almost immediately, coz i hit my back, and was worried about the paralysis. but im ok.. going back to school on mon.. and trg real soon! dont want to carry too much lard with me while running.