grandma: lolx! when did you become my grandma sianks?! anyway.. i had a blog earlier this afternoon.. it was a thank you blog for you, but weirdly, it didnt appear... so here i am again... giving you all my thanks.. i really appreciated it and thanked god a million times that you're an IT student!! im returning you a favour by summarising my "big events" for year 2003! well, though it hasnt end yet, loads of challenges have been taken by this ms green here.. so here i go..

lets talk about the most recent event? the netball team had a long session with each other yesterday... i tell you something that you wont believe.. my views about ms shanthi's plesant nature have changed drastically.. i bet most of the IJ-rians thought that ms shanthi, was a very responsible teacher (though not very promising), who seems to be the "hot favourite" in the school.. where students would run after her just say hi or wave at her... her great "title" had been abolished i must say..
heard the most shocking, but most relaible comments about ms shanthi from this someone.. that she has failed to accomplish god's simplest task for everyone; honesty.. maybe i was wronged about her all along? she was very hypocritical.. i was very disappointed with her.. i looked up to her so much...
netballers were always caught in between the fatherly teachers and the motherly coach... always been the ones cornered with no space for anything.. but we were surviving from the limited amount of oxygen given by our "parents" separately.. they never seemed to have got together, giving the maximum amount to us... but we're not the ones suffocating.. its the adults themselves..
ms shanthi, had denied all the sly comments she made... did many things to disappoint every one of us time and time again.. we were downhearted by her actions... we were all disenchanted... so shit right?

not very long ago, my form teacher shouted at face, "i look down on you xianwei!" for being the last in class, for crying, for everything.. she hates me.. the last thing you should be in mrs wong's eyes is being a PEST. i never been happy in school.. its not entirely her fault though.. if i had been more disciplined and tried to prove her wrong, i wouldnt have ended up like this... i was very embarrassed by what she told me.. sent my coach funny msgs too... i really made a fool outta myself this time...

dont wish to continue, coz heart is aching like hell.. with no cure yet.. heart has been very uptight... hoping that by expressing your feelings to a 'blog of friends' will at least numb the pain in me a little...